Three Sum

The last time

I had dinner

with someone

I didn’t

know

was a few

months 

ago

by 

the pool

with

other friends

in common.

It was not

random.

We were

introduced

intentionally.

We realized

that,

like us,

they used 

to live

in Connecticut.

The guys 

play golf.

Commonalities.

We shared

likes and

dislikes. 

We would

learn more

background

each 

gathering.

In sum,

we were

introduced

with knowledge 

of some

sameness:

shared

experiences,

people,

and likes…

conversation

starters.

Imagine

sharing

a meal

with

a like 

minded

friend

(supporter)

and their

like 

minded

friend.

A conversation

starter,

“Nice 

to meet

you.”

Even

as

racist

white supremacist

neo

nazis

are the

dinner

companions!!

It was 

just

dinner, 

with 

gross

bigots—

whose calling cards 

are crazy 

bigotry—

who 

we can

only hope 

get

just

deserts.

They 

may

be

three

stooges,

but

their

audience

is

weaponized 

and

eager.

The sum

total

of the

dinner

is 

the horror

of hate–

racism

and

antisemitism

metastasizing

rapidly

as

the “dinner

party”

stayed

silent and

complicit.

Trickles 

of 

rejection

days

after

knowingly

avoiding

and

trying 

to balance

what?

Not 

staying aligned

with

a loser, 

versus 

aligning

with

hate

and

abetting violence

by abiding

all.

Costume Party

It’s

That

Time

Of

Year

When 

We are

Treated

To 

Tricks

Of the

Trade of

Politics.

I learned

The term

“Ballot

Mules”

As 

“Mule

Watchers”

Deputized

Themselves

To Guard

Against

Fraud

At

Drop

Boxes

Anywhere.

Dressed

In

Tactical

Gear,

Armed 

For

Battle

with

Guns

Against 

Ballots,

One

Party

Spreads 

Fear

By 

Insinuation,

Intimidation,

Instigation,

Imitation,

And threats.

Wearing

Fatigues

Vested

With weaponry

Is hardly

A show

Of strength

Or power.

Who 

Is

Afraid

Now?

The ones

Who are

Armed to

The teeth!

Suggesting

Violent

Resolution 

And

Insurrection

In

The name

Of

Patriotism

Is 18th 

And 19th

Century

Cosplay.

21st Century

America

Has become

Wearing

And

Fatigued.

Terrified 

of

Losing

Power,

They 

Are

Dressed

To Kill.

We are

Battling

The Costumed

Party.

Vote

Democratically. 

Dis-cuss:

Disquiet

Discomfort

Disturbing

Disempowering

Displaying

Disaffection

Distorting

Disagreeably

Disallowing

Disambiguating

Disapproval

Disavowing

Discarding

Discernment,

Disciples

Disclaim

Discomfiting

Disconnected

Discord

Discouragingly

Discovering

Discredited

Discrete

Dishonesties.

Disengaged

Disinformed

Dishonroable

Dismissive

Disintegrating

Disjuncture

Disseminating

Disorder

Disowning

Distracting

Disreputable

Disputes,

Disgracefully

Discussing

Disingenuous

Disintegration.

Work

It’s

Working

For

Now.

Fear 

Is

The combustible

Engine

We drive

Barely

Navigating

This dirt

Road— 

Narrow,

Bumpy, 

Endless.

Dead

End

Signs

Everywhere,

Looking

For

Off

Ramps,

Seeing

Nothing

But

Torment.

Exhausted,

Thirsty,

Without

Appetite

Being

Responsible

Despite

Everything.

Is

This

Being

Responsible?

Barely

Surviving;

Constantly

Depleted?

Objects

In

Mirror

Are 

Closer

Than 

They 

Appear.

Difficult

Choices

Increasingly

Limited,

Seeing

No

New

Options.

Not

A

Path

But

A ditch

From which

Wheels

Spin.

Ditch

The vehicle

Transporting

Nowhere

As this fear

Feels

Safer than

Others.

It’s 

Familiar,

Albeit

Amplified.

Convinced

That

Alternate

Routes

Do

Not

Exist

Now,

And

Alternate

Facts

Prevail,

Stop

Believing

This

Stuff!

Doing

Something

Else

Can work. 

Nervous System

Working in

aggregate,

coordinating

movement,

a network

of cells

sends 

signals;

agitating,

threatening,

overtaking,

oppressing

such that 

disorder

overwhelms;

paralyzing

developmental

processes,

limiting 

capacity,

as

patterns

reveal

themselves.

However

stuck

we

feel,

the knot

is 

not

all

the 

system

can

accomodate.

Post COVID Drip

Losing our

Sense

Of taste

And smell,

Leaving foul

Stench

And bitter

Notes

Lingering,

Polluting,

Enough 

To notice

Despite

Partially

Impaired

Functionality.

We can

Still

Smell

Rot

And taste

Resentment,

Spite,

Cruelty;

Evil

Disguised 

As

Victimhood.

The unthinkable

Keeps happening

Depriving

Innocents

And innocence.

Conspiracy

Marries

Weaponry

And the 

Inexplicable

Becomes

Tolerated,

Having lost

Taste.

Having lost

Sense.

Life Expectancy

The headline today:

US losing

Life 

Expectancy

Due to 

COVID19

The average

Lifespan

Is 

One 

Year

Less.

Life expectancy

Has generally

Denoted

Progress

Referring to

Extending

Years

Of living.

The goal

Has been

To be

Alive

As 

Long

As

Possible.

Now,

Some seek

To define

Life

Extending

Before

Birth

As long

As possible.

(Thus far,

We’ve counted

After birth.)

What to

Expect

When

You’re expecting?

Your

Life 

Matters

Less

Than

Potential

Biological

Processes 

Not yet 

Formed

Or 

Counted

On 

The scale

Of Life

Expectancy.

My unscientific 

Analysis

Suggests that 

Most of us

Want to approach

 A century

 On earth

 Outside a womb

Feeling ok

Then passing

Peacefully

In our sleep.

I don’t expect

My life

To end

That way

Or 

Unfold

Without

Issues. 

What

Do we

Expect

Of life

After 

Birth

Before

Death?

That 

Deserves

More 

Attention

As we

Are losing

All that

Too.

Zero In

Nada.

Not a chance

In Hell

On earth

By the sea

To lake

Or island

Of Manhattan

Nor

County

Of

The Braves

Where 

Claims of 

Nothing

Wrong

Defying 

Justice

Threatening

Upheaval

Even talk

Of Civil

War

Anew

Will 

Stop

This

Crazy 

Train 

Of 

Lies 

And thefts

Barnacles 

All,

Clinging

To 

A Zero

With

Nothing 

But shilling

For 

Self

For 

Power

And money

As 

Investigations

Zero In

On

Facts

It 

Figures

Are crimes

For which

We are

Paying

The price

Of

Losing

Democracy.

That 

Zero

Must be

Indicted.

Left Handed

What’s left 

When what’s

Handed down

Is cruelty?

In the name of

Jesus

Or The

Forefathers,

Decisions

To upend

And reverse

And ignore,

Or pretend that

Conception 

Is holy

And immaculate,

21st Century Puritans

Called Originalists

Or just

Christians

(Which is an insult

To Christianity),

Have left

A heinous legacy.

Power,

Greed—

The usual

Culprits

Hand down

To the young

The American

Nightmare.

Fossil fuels

And fossils fuel

A changing climate

Devastating now.

What’s left

After being

Handed

Destruction

Regarded

As victory

For themselves

Only?

The uncivil

War

Or revolution

Is revolting.

I know

It’s 

Too

Much

But what

Will you

Leave 

Ahead?

The Right

Left lies,

Insurrection,

Gun fetish,

Retraction

Of women’s

Autonomy

And health

Threats to 

LGBTQ+,

And 

Elections.

There is much

Left

To do 

Starting now.

Hate

Needs apathy

As much

As support.

Democracy

Demands

Participation

For all.

In addition

To voting,

It’s in

Your hands.

Still

I still believe

In evolution

Despite

Breaking News

And broken

Norms,

Laws, and

Utter Climate Change.

We can’t go

Backwards

Or

Remain still

Anymore

Than we can

Be

Young again.

This moment

That feels

Endless

And also still

As a dark

Cloud

Or maybe

Smog

Hovering

Oppressing

Menacing

Polluting

Seemingly static

And yet

We still

Continue

Seeking

Clarity

Distilling knowledge

To become

Still better

Positioned

To meet

Change.

We choose

How 

We live

Still.

Perhaps not

Our conditions,

But our

Responses.